____until the day they burn my body x i will love you++ star crossed love

2005-09-07T11:07:00.000+08:00

i've got a new blog. its like totally the same as this one. lol.

http://-astheworldturns.blogspot.com/

good bye blog!

2005-08-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

i realised what it feels like to be so sad that you cant feel anything. its funny, really. how small lil things can make someone so sad. i guess its cos to that person, those things mean alot.

people says if someone is worth loving, that person will never make you cry. it sounds pretty but i dont think its true. i think its when you know every single tear you cry for that person is worth it, you know that person is worth loving. but then again, of cos it would be better if someone you love never make you cry. but life isnt a dream, is it?

2005-08-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

i was so damn sick in school today i slept like most of the time. haha. none of the teacher said anything. grin.anyway i feel so bad now cos i was saving up money to buy something for someone and i went to spend it on a stupid belt. i dont think that belt was worth 50bucks. what was i thinking man! sigh. now i have to save up again. oh well.

just got off the phone with karol. miss her lots! hey i hope u and that person erm you know. haha. yup! cant wait 2 go out with you. =)

hmm.. i wonder what subject combi i should take next year. sigh. i think i should just take ART anf FAIL it. haha. hmm. is taking full hist a good idea? but my hist is like SO lousy. arh! nvm, i shall nt think abt it - yet. like atticus says "it's not the time to worry yet." =)

2005-08-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

i feel bad. like sher was trying to call me like the WHOLE day today but i only answered her like at 2+? sry sher! wasnt on purpose! and i JUST finished my part of lit. yeah. cant contact son so sher is quite stress. chill sher! we'll work it out. dont wry. =) we're lucky we have sher. she is like the only organized one.

haha.. kyne i hope you will like the bday gift! haha..

2005-08-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

i m so beat

this entry is for karol

i know you are busy, so m i. i m so afraid our friendship will fade away. you are my best friend, nothing ever came between us. i dont want our busy lives to come between our friendship. i love you babe. i'll always remember the innocent[fine, not so innocent] fun we had, the smiles we shared, the times we spent together. i'll never forget the time when i called you, crying, because i thought my dad was going to die[LOL. that was stupid]. you were the first person i thought of. i remember hating THAT jerk so much for hurting u. i wanted to slap him so badly. i'll never forget your crazy crush on pk and mine on derrick. remember we used to walk pass pk's house like 346786543 times? we were so stupid. the yellow colour shirt guy, LOL. guys came, took our hearts and torn them apart, but we are still here, because we were there for each other. broken hearts were mended, tears were wiped away, over and over and over. we are into different things now, but that doesnt change anything. i hope it never will. our friendship means ALOT to me. i love you karol. no matter what happen, i'll stand by you. remember you have a friend who loves you and all your imperfections. you dont need to impress me, i dont care what you wear, what you have or how you look like. i love you for who you are inside. friends for life and friends for real? =)

lol. i sound lesbo. but i love my karol!

2005-08-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

YAY! aaron! haha.. i REALLY think terence is gona like it! yup! thanks 4 paying 4 it! sry i m soooo poor! had a BLAST today! i miss our "dates". You are the best fren anyone can ever have!

CHERYL IS BACK!!!!!! i cant wait to meet her!!!!! miss her TONS!!!! cant wait 4 dis sat! =)))

i miss you..

2005-07-20T09:46:00.000+08:00

i LOVE the ONs!!
sher [hon] <33
sonya [son] <33
suuuulin [pon] <33
me [mon]
YAY! ONsters! haha..

i'm sooo proud of sher! fastest runner in sec1 + sec2!! the next weiling.. haha.. GRATS SHER! ilu sher!! =))
"sonson says hi.HELLLOOOO Ilove mon more than she loves me." NOOO son! i love you just as much, if not more! YEAH!

oh! heard we are gonna change seats today or sumething.. hope suu, son, sher and i get to sit near each other.. i think we can vote who we want to sit with with.. of cos i want sher! i dont mind suu and son too! lol.. if me and suu sit together, bet we ll be slacking off all the time, but at least it ll b fun! son would be soo fun 2 sit with too! but sitting with sher actually helps me in my work.. like in maths cos sher is so good, and she always help me out.. and its tons of fun too!! i hope i'll at least be sitting with one the ONs! =))

Suu is obsessed with getting tan.. son is obsessed with a certain someone, and i nv said it is a guy! lol.. becs is obsessed with losing weight.. aaron is obsessed with his new puppy, which is so AH-DORABLE!! tats all i got for now =))

2005-07-12T09:58:00.000+08:00

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone a stray
But she will sing

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns

Til everything burns
Everything burns
Everything burns
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
All fade away
Everyone screams
Everyone screams
Watching it all fade away
While everyone screams
Burning down lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away

i'm in love with this song!!!!!! i cant help it.. its SOOOOOO nice! haha.. it keeps repeating in my head..

well today started out boring with english and phy.. it was like SUPER boring.. but (HURHUR) sher was so funny.. she is soo obsessed with fruit basket and the character Kyo.. she was like kissing the book and everything.. Then there was one part wherr this guy kiss this girl and she started blushing n getting SOOOOO excited! LOL.. she went around and show that page to everyone.. SHER IS OBSESSED!! haha.. obsessions can be scary sometime.. like i'm obsessed with meiji sweets and maybe, eminem.. LOL.. like ash is obsessed with clothes!! kim is obsessed with sports! kit is obsessed knowing the latest happenings n stuffs.. kel is obsessed with her weight, even though her body is perfectly perfect! emily is obsessed with romance novals.. terence, like kim, is obsessed with sports.. aaron is obsessed with his looks(jkjk!).. mike is obsessed with his HAIR! josh is obsessed with girls.. lol.. hmm.. who else? oh oh! sulin is obsessed with proving the point that she is not blur, even though it will nv be proven! cant think of anyone else for now.. oh yes! my whole class is obsessed with their weight! Ms.tang is obsessed with telling us erm jokes.. lol.. i ll add somemore ppl to my 'list of obsession' another time.. haha.. =)

2005-07-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

i HEART sher + suu + son!!! <33
sweethearts! we are soo ON!
lets go dancing in the rain
water dripping from our hair
clothes sticking to our skin
screaming our lungs out

LOL! i m losing it! haha..
i m going nuts! but in a good way.. =))
yay!

cos you are my everything

2005-07-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

i cant believe im saying this but; i rather be at school[or anywhere else] than at home..

ARGGG!!!! my parents r driving me to my grave! gosh!

i want to
close my eyes
slash my wrist
go to sleep
and pray to God
i won't wake up

but i try be strong instead..

2005-07-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

IT'S FRIDAY!!!! heh! yup! this week had been quite good actually.. i didnt really expected it.. =))

lol.. played soccer during pe today.. it was fun! lol.. sulin was so blur! haha.. sher's good! she's like perfect man! sher can you stop being perfect? haha.. oh! during life sciene, sher and i got scolded.. lol.. cause we were erm..doing something.. lol.. sher did u check? LOL.. training was ok.. hmm.. i really dont want bush n june to leave for IP.. i am sure the whole team doesnt want either.. oh well.. i guess it is really up to them, but hope they decide to stay..

i'm having a hard time typing this cause i m talking on the phone.. omigosh! lil dan is being super gross.. he's like talking about josh j/o.. i really really really dont wanna know, REALLY! i'm sure kit doesnt too.. lol.. haha.. SHUT UP dan!

-sigh- i feel like i hardly get to talk to you today.. =/

2005-06-25T19:15:00.000+08:00

I LOVE AARON!!!! he just saved my LIFE! well.. sorta? haha.. I LOVE TERENCE too!!! he played a part in SAVING my life!! HURHUR!!

HONEY I MISS YOU!!!!!!

2005-06-22T15:34:00.000+08:00

Take A Minute Girl
Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can See The Pain
Don't You Try To Convince Us That You're Happy
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You

Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And You Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're Your Girls
Don't You To Know That We Love You?

Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Us To Help?
We Known Each Other Too Well
Girl I've Been Knowin' You Since You Were Ten,
You Cannot Hide From Your Friends

Darling Dump Him
He's Not Worth Your Time
I Hate To See You Hurt
You Don't Need A Guy To Be Happy,
You've got us
We'll Always Stand By You

2005-06-21T19:24:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE ONLY ALMOST HERE

2005-06-11T13:16:00.000+08:00

not all scars show
not all wounds heal
sometime you can't always see
the pain someone feels

2005-06-03T18:19:00.000+08:00

off to perth tomorrow!! yup! cant say i'm dying to go cos i'm not.. it's a pretty boring place and i'll be missing my friends sooo much!! yeah.. but i must admit i'm quite excited! i'm bunking with grace(<333), lk and becs!! heh!! all of them are sooo fun, we're gonna have a blast! yup! i'm almost all packed.. =))

i'm gonnna miss.. YOU, karol darling, ash honey, kim sweetie, kit cutie-pie, aaron, terence, mike, jonathan, calvin, carina, nancy, kelly, mia, kyne, derek, sean, lil dan, benjamin, joel, sher, sulin, sonya, andy, emily, angel, beyonca, jonny, sandra, mel, lindsay, sheryl, ben, benji, nick, marcus, justin, terence, sarene, hannah, john, hannh lim, amanda, beth, chris, jimmy, derrick lim, eugene, adeline, ALL e netties, my classmates, my bed, my bathroom, my tv, ALL MY FRIENDS, my freedom and lastly my family.. yeah.. i'll miss my LIFE! uh huh.. haha.. oh yeah! sry if i 4got 2 mention ur name, i really didnt mean 2.. i almost 4got aaron even.. haha.. so yup! sry! aaron, terence, mike and jonathan are oso going on sum trip and they're coming back one day after me.. haha.. yup yup! have fun guys!!! =))

today was super fun.. uh huh.. went out wif jonathan, kyne and al.. watched monster-in-law.. haha.. great show! yup yup! saw hannah lee and steph.. haha.. anyway had truckloads of fun!! =))

i'm gonna miss YOU like nuts!! i'm gonna miss YOU truckloads!!!! <33

2005-06-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
(So let it be)
There's a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

2005-06-02T18:55:00.000+08:00

i wonder if i take you home, would you still be in love baby?

please don't phunk with my heart!!

i'm insecure because i'm just not good enough..

2005-05-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

i was suppose to go out with sulin n kim today, i was like really looking 4ward 2 it but i found i got training so i couldnt go.. but after that i found out there was no training but too late, sulin already promised her fren to go out with her.. *sigh* just my luck! neway sulin hav fun in uk ya? MISS ME!!! lol.. =))

so i went out with jon.. went to watch madagascar.. jon wanted to watch it soooo bad.. its damn cheesy but nice.. do catch it if u hav e time.. haha.. yup! it was quite fun.. wanted to take neoprints but 4got! bet jon was like soo disappointed since he luvvvvvvs taking neos.. lol.. jk! den we after tat wereally duno wat 2 do so we just like sat down 2 talk n stuffs.. haha.. was trying 2 tink of wat 2 buy 4 kyne 4 his bday.. jon, i dun care, u r buying IT.. lol.. haha.. oh! i was hoping 2 meet sulin there but didnt.. =(

yup! all in all, it was a GREAT day!! heh! <33333

2005-05-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

today was quite funny.. we had to go to some maths trail thing for school 2day.. its like e whole day lah.. i tink it was quite fun lah.. dumb but we kept tinking of retarded ways 2 get e answers n everytin so quite funny.. haha.. i m like e leader of my group.. trust me, i m e leader only coz my nane's on top.. haha.. joyce, ruth n ifra r in my group! my group's damn nice n fun! n guess wat?? we got 1st in 2e!! heh! amazing isnt? haha.. wow.. all 3 of them were soooo good! my maths as lousy as shit.. yup! neway great job guys! hahaha..
oh! 2day training was fun! but i was like stressed over stuffs so i was in a bad mood.. *sigh*

hey.. i m sooo sry 4 e pain i brought in2 ur life.. i really never mean to make u sad.. seeing u sad is 100times worse than being sad myself.. it felt like my heart was breaking over n over again.. i m really sry ya? i love u.. <33

2005-05-26T11:34:00.000+08:00

i m like in skool now.. waiting 4 sonya in e library.. omg! what's taking her soo long? its so damn boring here.. ><>GET WELL ASAP SHER!!! nt sure waz up wif sulin.. but hope u r ok.. come to skool tomoro guys!

i wanna go home n slp.. i m like slpy 24/7 now adays.. *yawn* i need some slp.. got back my report book.. i dun wanna look at it.. my results r so lousy.. *sigh* especially my maths.. damn! oh oh! ur maths soo good! wow.. u must help me ya? haha.. really really wanted to meet u yest.. sry i couldnt! =(

i tink i should learn to control my anger.. i mean being grounded is badddddd.. n i still havent learn my lesson.. i m like asking to be grounded longer.. cant wait till monday! my grounding will be over by den.. wanted to shout back at my dad yest but i thought of u and was like telling myself nt to get grounded even longer.. it worked.. i relaxed n just blocked watever my dad was saying out n kept tinking of u.. haha.. den u smsed me n i was like reading ur msg and it made me smile.. n my dad was like saying 'its not funny' n i started lol.. haha.. quite funny.. luckily my dad didnt say netin nemore n went 2 talk to my bro abt soccer.. yeah watever.. went out 4 supper at sum hotel, my family n my uncle's.. reached home at like 12? yeah.. wanted to talk to kyne coz he was sad but i tink he was slping already.. n u were already aslp too i tink.. so sad u didnt get 2.. er.. nvm.. lol.. neway aaron, terence, mike, jonathan, kit n i had conference until like 2+ when e guys went to watch soccer match(i m not happy that liverpool won).. it was super funny coz terence, mike n jon were at aaron's hus so they juz on e loudspeaker n were like shouting in2 e fone.. lol.. n jon got really horny n started talking abt his gf n *ahem* nvm.. neway kit was like super HIGH n kept going on n on abt her new puppy(btw it's REALLY adorable).. lol.. n mike n i kept fighting over who is smarter, who is better, who is right n basically everything.. lol.. terence was like working out.. super dumb! haha.. aaron was in 1 of his laughing mood n kept laughing.. it was sooo funny it almost got annoying.. haha.. den later terence finished his work out n started telling us sum ghost craps.. n i had nightmares later!! omg! i hate u terence! haha.. it was fun thou.. but i kept thinking of u.. cant help it.. i really miss u alot!

you're the only one

I'd be with till the end

When I come undone

You bring me back again

Back under the stars

Back into your arms

Cuz i'm in love with you

2005-05-22T17:37:00.000+08:00

sometime i wonder how i'm gonna live life without u..
i wish i wont have to..
coz i really dun wanna..
you mean the world to me..
life would be meaningless without u in it..

dont u get it?

i love you..

2005-05-18T09:52:00.000+08:00

damn it! the libary is so freeezing cold..

lol.. was going through maths paper n home econ paper earlier.. LOL.. sure fail man! thank god haven get back the papers today yet.. *sigh* y do i always have to be so stupid? oh well.. lol.. funny tin, yest sonya n becs oso didnt come 2 skool.. so ppl thought we pon together.. lol.. but i had v v v bad cramps in the morning lah.. cant even walk.. den my head was feeling so heavy.. stayed in bed till my mum came 2 wake me up coz i was going to be late 4 skool.. my parents wont let me pon skool 4 the world.. if nt i would pon everyday.. haha..

omg! karol we SOOO have to go out again.. with the guys n all ya? =)) cant wait 4 u to cum slp over at my hus.. =)) haha.. hmm.. my darling is growing prettier n prettier everytime i c her man! haha..

omg! its really really cold here.. i m like freezing.. *sigh* wish u were here.. =)

2005-05-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

had netball training today.. wow.. first training after so long! haha.. i missed training! i dun really miss training i guess, i miss the times b4 training n stuffs.. haha.. neway training was quite slack coz mrs kuan was not there.. haha.. but i think quite fun lah.. =))

Jump!

I dont wanna wake up today
Cause everyday's the same
And I'd been waiting so long
For things to change
I'm sick of this town
Sick of my job
Sick of my friends 'cause everyone's jaded
Sick of this place, I wanna break free
I'm so frustrated, I just wanna
Jump!
Don't wanna think about tomorrow
I just don't care tonight
I just wanna jump
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump

I don't wanna wake up one day
And find out it's too late
To do all the things I wanna do
So I'm gonna pack up my bags
I'm never coming back
'Cause the years are passing by
And I'm wasting all my time
Sick of this house
Sick of being broke
Sick of this town, that's bringing me down
I'm sick of this place, I wanna break free
I'm so frustrated, I just wanna jump

Jump!
Don't wanna think about tomorrow
I just don't care tonight,
I just wanna jump
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump
I just wanna jump

I can't take it anymore

Forget tomorrow, I just wanna jump
Don't wanna think about tomorrow
I just don't care tonight,
I just wanna jump
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
It's time to let them go
Forget tomorrow, I just wanna jump

I just wanna jump

2005-05-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

i'm not gonna be
just apart of their game
i'm not gonna be
just the victim
they're taking my dreams
and they tear them apart
til everyone's the same
i've got no place to go
i've got no where to run
they love to watch me fall
they think they know it all

i'm a nightmare, a disaster
that's what they always say
i'm a lost cause, not a hero
but I'll make it on my own
i've gotta prove them wrong
me against the world
it's me against the world

i won't let them change
How my feel in my heart
i'm not gonna let them control me
i won't let them shove
all their thoughts in my head

i've got no place to go
i've got no where to run
they love to watch me fall
they think they know it all

i'm a nightmare, a disaster
that's what they always say
i'm a lost cause, not a hero
but I'll make it on my own
i've gotta prove them wrong
it's me against the world
me against the world

now I'm sick of this waiting
so come on and take your shot
you can spit all your insults
but nothing you say is gonna change me
you can sit there and judge me
say what you want to
i'll never let you in

i'm a nightmare, a disaster
that's what they always say
i'm a lost cause, not a hero
but I'll make it on my own
me against the world

i'm a nightmare, a disaster
that's what they always say
i'm a lost cause, not a hero
but I'll make it on my own
i've gotta prove them wrong
they'll never bring me down

we'll never fall in line
i'll make it on my own
me against the world

i hate being wronged.. =/

2005-04-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

aww man! stuck at home coz i m sick.. i wana go 2 skool, i got alot of questions 4 maths.. *sigh*

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

2005-04-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

arh! i'm being forced to update.. but i really have nothing to say.. er.. erm.. hmm..
oh! yesterday was cool! track was all right.. Charelene rocks man!!!! mygosh! she's my lil champ! so proud of her! haha.. met my friend in the afternoon.. lol.. damn fun! =))) had a really great time.. after that, i went to bittersweet.. i think it was ok.. haha..

nothing much happened today.. another normal sat.. i'm soooo broke can't even go shopping with ash.. =( there are like so many things i need to buy but totally no money..

i think i should be positive! i mean i'm blessed with great friends, a home to live and food on the table everyday.. i mean so wat if school's driving me nuts? and wat if some ppl dun like me? wat if sum teachers dun like me? wat if my bro's mean? wat if i'm stupid? wat if i'm not good at anything? it doesnt matter.. i have sooo many good things in life.. i have friends who love me.. i have a place to call home.. i have you.. and most importantly, i have God.. =)))

2005-04-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times 10 but you just got in the way

Don't give up now running away
I won't hurt you
sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dyingT
hat's when I need you
Laughing's always easy,
but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives

This is our lives on holiday

2005-04-11T21:13:00.000+08:00

i m like very depressed nowadays coz of sum stuffs tat happened.. but i m soooooo glad my frens r like there 4 me.. netime, neday!

jess, ash, kim, kit, emily, kel, karol n carina!! i LOVE u guys!!!!! uh huh.. i really really really do!! i duno wat i`ll do without u guys.. i bet i would b dead wif a scar on my wrist.. LOL.. but u guys help me through troubled times.. remember ash, u used to gimme 3diff reasons to live on everyday during `those times`.. i still remember jess crying wif me everytime i m sad.. kit n her lame jokes!! kim wif who-cares-abt-wat-others-tink talks.. haha.. longggggg talks with emily that always end with me smiling and feeling MUCH better! kel listening to me go on n on wifout eva complaining.. karol telling me its ok n scolding e person who made me sad even if she duno who tat person is.. carina cheering me up just by simply joking n fooling around wif me.. haha.. my life would be a living hell wifout u guys in it.. =))) thankx babes! <3

omg!! i really really really feel like tranfering skool.. its sooo stressful in mg n all e teachers tink i m sum kinda ah lian*rolleyes*.. but my parents r like totally against me changing skool.. *sigh* why cant they let me decide 4 myself man.. I noe wats best 4 ME.. if i stay in mg longer i might go nuts! i luv my frens n my teammates there but its juz.. feel so wrong.. 4 once, i nida do sometin rite 4 myself..

btw sonya! cheer up babe!!! =))) oh and karen u 2 ya? cheer up!!! luvya!!! <3

I am well aware that I don't belong here..you've made that perfectly clear..

2005-04-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

W O W

today was great! =)))) had fun!!!! =)))) karol I LOVE U DARLING!!! =)) watched samara.. =)) v nice i tink.. *grin* but its like SCARY lah.. haha.. but.. neway.. yeah.. v fun.. =)))

its not even a day n i m missing u already.. never thought that you could mean soooooo much to me in such a lil time..

2005-04-07T10:17:00.000+08:00

i REALLY REALLY hate home econ.. like REALLY! gosh! i dun even know why we have to take it man! so dumb.. oh well.. maybe there are people who likes it.. it should be opinional or something? yeah.. *sigh* the home econ teacher wanna book me for like a-tousand-and-one things.. and she's gonna call my mum.. lol.. would be quite funny, what is she gonna say? "monyee is not doing her home econ work properly," LOL.. and my mum will be like "oh ok,".. haha.. my mum wont give a damn about my home econ, seriously.. but she's probably gonna say that i'm very rude and everything.. UGH!

i just realized that my maths is v v v lousy.. *sigh* sher is sad about getting 24? erm.. i got 16!!! but now her mark is changed to 26 [grats sher!!] hopefully mine would be 18? haha.. omg! tomorrow is family night, i hope our class will do well.. gosh! i better not screw up.. ><
GO 2eeeeeeee!!!!!!! i know everyone of us have put in some effort into this, so hopefully we'll enjoy ourselves tomorrow? yup! hey sonny, dun stress ya? luvya! =))

i love simple plan's song Jump ALOT right now.. i think coz i can relate to it.. actually i like the song Me against the world too.. =))) hmm.. come too thik of it, i like all their songs!!! =))) oh ya! simple plan concert rawked!!! thankx terence, for the tickets! u rawk! =)))

2005-04-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

i`m n0t suppose t0 l0ve you
i`m n0t suppose t0 care
i`m n0t suppose t0 live my life
wishing you were there
i`m n0t suppose t0 w0nder
where you are and what you d0
i`m s0rry i just cant help myself
cause i have fell in l0ve with you

i`m thinking 0f you in my sleepless s0litude nite
if it`s wrong t0 l0ve y0u
then my heart just w0n`t let me be rite
c0s i`m dr0wned in you
and i w0n`t pull through
with0ut you by my side

i may n0t get t0 see you as 0ften as i like
i may n0t get t0 h0ld you in my arms through the nite
but deep in my heart i truely kn0w
you are the one that i l0ve
and i cant p0ssibly let you g0

sweet rite? =)))

hey karol, glad 2 noe u r doing beta! luvya so much!
hey good luck wif u-noe-wat ya? *wink*

2005-03-30T13:32:00.000+08:00

Boy I never knew I could feel
The way I felt, when I felt the way
You were feeling me baby
I'm so out of control

Every time you look my way
I realize more and more
How much I adore those pretty eyes
Of yours, I'm helpless baby

What I wanna know is
Are you willing to try?
Can you love me for a lifetime
In just one night?

Baby I love you (love you)
Baby I need you (need you)
I gotta have you (I gotta have you babe)
Can't be without you (be without you)

Blessed and cursed on the same day,
The day that I first felt the power of you
Inside of me, such a strong feeling,
There comes a time in everyone's life
When you know, and everyone around you knows
That everything is changed,
You're not the same,
It's a new day

Oh what I wanna know is,
Are you willing to try
There's gotta be more meaning to this
Than what meets the eye

Baby I love you (baby i need you)
Baby I need you (gotta have you baby)
I gotta have you (can't be without you)
Can't be without you (baby i love you)

Oh, I love the way you kiss me
Oh, baby please
I'm about to lose my mind
Oh talk to me, 'cause I'm begging for you
And I'm down on my knees
Baby, I know you're the one that I need

Baby I love you
Baby I need you
I gotta have you
Can't be without you

2005-03-30T13:22:00.000+08:00

Now you ve been holding me down
For such a long time now
From back then
To now in my story
Straight from the hood

You ve always been there for me
And ya had my back
Back when everybody said
I wasnt anything
It was you who had me holdin' on
No matter what was goin' on
So now whatever ya need I got you

Now my loyalty, will always be
With you, if you just promise me
That you ll stay real just like you are
Cause baby you dont have to change

You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever you down
You know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation
Girl, I'm gona hold you down

So remember this whenever I call
We go back too far
We ve been through it all
Even though we havent spoke in so long
Aint nothing has changed
Not a damn thing, baby

You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever you down
You know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation
Im gona hold you down

dis one is for my babes!! jess, ash, kim, kit, karol n carina!! i luvvvvv u guys!! thankx 4 ALWAYS being there 4 me.. =)))

2005-03-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

THANKX SHER 4 helping me with e wateva format tin 4 e hist tin? lol.. u RAWK! oh yeah, SULIN THANKX 4 offering to help me wif e pics 4 our english project but its ok.. i've pretty much done it neway! juz put everytin in place n print it out ya? ASH THANKX 4 listening 2 me go on n on n on abt *cough* stuffs juz nw.. i luv u darling! kiez.. tats enough thankews i tink.. =)))

*sigh* the truth will hurt u, so i lied..
mayb i should have tell u e truth..
but i dun wan u 2 get hurt..
izzit wrong to care?

2005-03-29T09:59:00.000+08:00

*SIGH* the english project was suppose to be GOOD.. but it didnt trun out the way we wanted it 2.. me n sonya spent time researching.. den finally she found sumtin good.. so i start working on the powerpoint n pics while she work on editing e infos n stuffs.. we started reserching at like 6.30 den at like 10.45 she finished editing, n i was suppose to edit n put in nicely in powerpoint which i already prepared.. den her com hang or sumtin.. oh gosh! n she started crying n i started going nuts! but her dad was fixing the com but there's nth we could do.. den she said he dad managed to 'save' our work v much later.. we were like slping by den? Zzz..
den today we came to skool n we were planning to explain it to ms.ng n tell her to let us do it e next lesson but she REFUSED n wanted 2 give us like 0?!! so we went ahead with e rough copy.. me, sonya, sulin n becs took turn to read it frm e screen.. *shakehead* we dun even hav a printed copy of it.. n like all e effort i put in2 e damn powerpoint was WASTED!! n ms.ng still wana go on abt spelling mistakes.. 4 crying out aloud, its a rough copy!! wat did she expect?! it was already considerd pretty good 4 a rough 1.. oh well.. juz our luck! we'll probably get e lowest in class or sumtin.. i mean look at our group members! we arent really her fav students or netin! i mean its our fault tat we didnt do it earlier but me n son sure did spent alot of time working on it! arhh crap! heyy sonya, cheer up babe! nt e end of e world ya? =))

the truth will hurt you, so i lied...

2005-03-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

Oh, Why You Look So Sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause I have seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I ll stand by you
I ll stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
I ll stand by you

So if you re mad,
get mad
Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well Im a lot like you
When you re standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if you’re wrong

I ll stand by you
I ll stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
I ll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I ll never desert you
I ll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You re feeling all alone
You wont be on your own

I ll stand by you
I ll stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you

I ll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I ll never desert you
I ll stand by you
I ll stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
I ll stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
I ll stand by you

hey karol! darling, tat one is for u ya? i noe u r going through a tough time now but no worries coz it ll be all rite in e end.. u did e rite tin so stick 2 it ya? no matter wat happen, i ll always stand by u.. u always be my BESTIE!! i luvya gal! u were wif me through my darkest hours, now let me b there 4 u kiez? and i’ll never desert you.. I'LL ALWAYS STAND BY YOU!!! <3 <3 i LOVE youuuu!!!!!!

2005-03-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

The sky is falling
And it's early in the morning
But it's ok somehow
I spilt my coffee
it went all over your clothes
I gotta wear mine now

And im always, always,always late
And my hair's a mess
Even when it's straight

But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain,
I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say,
i'm better off in every way

My friends keep callin'
They say, they say im stallin'
And they wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, i say
We're tryin' to lay low
Don't wanna lose what i've found

Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh my feet are on the ground
Even though im stuck

But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain,
I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say,
i'm better off in every way

Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh my feet are on the ground
Even though im stuck
Even though im stuck

But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain,
I dont mindI think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say,
i'm better off in every way

Better off in every way
I'm better off in every way
I'm better off today

The sky is falling
And it's early in the morning
But it's ok

2005-03-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

she's making me sooooo depress.. i mean, really! i cant take it man.. its like, i m sitting rite beside her yet i m missing her.. coz she is so diff nw.. but i decided i dun care! she wana trun every1 against me? fine, go ahead, wateva.. i like myself n tats all tat matters.. i dun give a damn abt wat other ppl tink nemore! i dun care nemore!

anyway went orchard with sum frens today.. watched spongebob!!!! lol.. e guys didnt want 2 watch it at first, but me n karol darling really did.. it was like 4 against 2? lol.. but we won it e end! *yay* lol.. probably only coz cine dun really have other gd movies neway.. haha.. i loveeee spongebob! he's so retarded n silly.. heehee.. nth interesting happen, except daryl kept acting like he was falling aslp.. haha.. n my eyes were on *cough* most of e time throughout e movie.. i m hopeless, i cant help it.. haha..

jess!!! i love u!!! =))) i really really do.. miss u lots!

btw sheryl, i gave u like 19 or 18? so relax..

2005-03-24T10:03:00.000+08:00

i cant believe tat.. ugh! i have nth to say, expect tat we r all so sick of the way u r acting..

neway.. think happy..
oh yeah.. aaron, terence, mike, jonathan, kim, kit, jess, calvini n ash rawk!!!!! they r such darrrrrlings!!! omg! i m so lucky 2 have frens like them.. <333> sweethearts!!! i'll be soooo depress without u guys in my life.. haha..

btw aaron, stop teasing me abt having 2 wear ur shirt.. i didnt ask mike to be sooo clumsy! lol.. haha.. mike dear, dun always tink of *ahem* stuffs, be more aware of ur surrounding.. haha.. wow.. cant wait 4 tomoro man! 3 days off from skool, wat can be beta? haha.. i HATE skool.. seriously seriously hate..

2005-03-23T13:05:00.000+08:00

LOL.. abt 2/3 of the class failed hist.. including me! 9/20.. carp! -_-" but it wasnt so bad coz i heard other classes did badly 2.. =) lol..

Skool's bad.. nt enjoying it at all.. hate skool.. its sooo stressful! bleah.. izzit juz mg or r all skools lidat? coz my frens frm other skools seem so relax.. mayb i should tranfer skool.. haha.. cant wait til fri, i nid a break man! *sigh*

arh! after e party on sat, i realized hw much i miss my pri frens.. miss them LOTS! it almost depressing! =( hmm.. i tink i should stop talking abt depressing stuffs.. muz think happy! =) lol.. its so weird coz evn thou i m so stressed n everytin, i m still SOOOO happy! lol.. werid eh? lol..

maybe because you make me smile.. ;p

2005-03-20T18:01:00.000+08:00

new skin.. been wanting to change it 4 sooo long.. juz couldnt find e time.. haha.. omg! i still haven do maths project, pw, english project, art n all e homeworks!! i dun even noe wat homeworks we have.. -_-"

2005-03-20T14:32:00.000+08:00

ohmigosh.. i m sooo happy.. even e fact tat skool's opening tomoro, e amount of work i haven finish, my mum nagging at me n my bro who threw a screwdriver at me, cant spoil my mood!! *grin* hahaha..
everything seems right, perfect!

maybe this is how it feel to be happy..
so scared it wont last thou..
but for now, i m happy, REALLY happy! =)))

2005-03-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

my dearest darling carina...
i feel blessed to be ur fren..
u r like an god-sent angel..
always being there 4 me all e time..
always comforting me..
always cheering me up..
always standing up 4 me..
always listening to me..
now.. let ME be there 4 u..
let ME comfort u..
let ME cheer u up..
let ME stand up 4 u..
let ME listen to u..
coz i care..
i noe u r strong..
u can go through this..
u can go through this n come out as a stronger person..
i noe u can do it..
if u ever get lost along e way..
tell me n i will show u e way..
if u ever get tired along e way..
tell me n i will carry u..
if u ever need anything along e way..
tell me and i will give it to you..
when u r happy, so will i..
when u r sad, so will i..
when u cry, so will i..
coz that's wat frens r for..
[best frens forever]

wow.. can u believe it? we've been frens since p4.. thou we werent so close til p5.. haha.. nth had come between our frenship.. nt tat stupid ms.chay who told u nt 2 mix wif me coz i m a "bad influence".. nt going to diff skools.. nt our busy lives.. through it all we r still best frens.. =) with u i can be myself.. coz i noe u r sum1 who likes me 4 me.. u always noe how 2 comfort me n 2 cheer me up.. ur smile brighten my day babe! i luv u 2 bits!!! neway stay strong! i'm always here 4 u.. u noe tat rite? *grin*

2005-03-08T08:46:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to meeeeee
Happy birthday to me! =))

2005-03-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Adele!!!! i luv u adele!!! u rawk!! =))

I juz got a chance 2 use 2 com coz mJ juz went home n he was using e com b4 tat.. MY com!! lol.. haha.. [mJ r u reading dis? lol..]

2005-03-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday sulin!!!!!!!

2005-02-23T20:53:00.000+08:00

watching ami now.. hmm.. tat anthony guy is quite cute.. heh! =D

i m looking out 4 my next 'sly'.. lol.. hahaha.. ;P

2005-02-22T09:52:00.000+08:00

went out 2 "study" wif clift yest but seriously? we didnt end up studying.. lol.. met carina n sum ppl frm krss.. =)) haha..

oh ya.. i noe my first impression of delcon was a bad 1.. but.. i tink he's nt tat bad of a person.. i mean, sure, he's horny n a flirt(HA!).. but doesnt mean he's bad rite? i tink i juged him b4 i really got 2 noe him.. i tink tats quite mean.. sowee delcon.. =(

i hav chem test tomoro, maths on thur n geog on friday.. i m SOOOO dead.. i haven study 4 ne of them.. n i hav a badddddddd feeling tat i m gona fail my maths! *sigh* i seem 2 b slacking alot these few days.. its like my mind tells me 2 study but my body juz dun wana listen? yeah.. mind-0 body-10.. lol.. haha..

er.. i tink i m like really crapping.. lol.. hahaha.. i will stop now..

2005-02-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

juz got off e fone wif clifty.. =)) well he's in a beta mood nw so tats good! =))

nt sure if i can handle skool tomoro.. e tot of skool juz makes me depressed..
i m like in a bad mood nw adays.. *sigh*
n like of all my skoolmates, only sonya noticed, or at least care.. thankx sonya!!
btw HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SONYA!!!!!
tats y i tink ash they all rawk! they r like ALWAYS there 4 me.. *grin* thankx guys! luv u guys lots!! *muuackz*
lol.. went shopping 2day.. spent quite alot.. n nw i m like broke.. lol.. nvm..

mike is THE best! he poured milkshake on delcon coz he pissed me off.. lol.. u really didnt hav 2 do it u noe? i dun wan u 2 get in2 trouble coz of me.. but thankx.. i luvya mike! well.. at least delcon said sowee.. he isnt TAT bad.. n he didnt blame mike 4 pouring milkshake on his NEW shirt.. lol.. hahaha..

kim good luck wif tat race ya? u go gal! =))

2005-02-17T09:48:00.000+08:00

lol.. i m in quite a good mood nw.. nt sure y thou.. mayb coz my pw tescher like our work? or coz our bio test is over? or mayb coz i juz found out all these great tinz tat cum along wif being in love? its like u can lose weight, be in more control of ur diet, be cheerful and everytin?? like omg, i so nid 2 find sum1 2 love, or at least like??? lol.. hahahha..

jon c'mon! get a spiky hair style ya??? =))))

2005-02-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

arrrrhhh!!! my frenster is SCREWED!!!!! oh yes..

sheryl
adele
dawn
sulin
darh
sonya
candy
stacy
eunice
becx
huijun
fang
JP
sandra
charlene
syl
chloe
nush
wanpin
aaron
terence
mike
jonathan
ash
kim
kit
jess
rachel
derek
sean
nancy
angel
emily
mia
joel
marcus
justin
carri
andy
calvin
jonathan low
beyonca
tiff
ian

THANKX 4 the Valentines' day gifts!!!!!!!!!! i luvv u guys!!! omg! if i miss out ne of u, i m sooooooooooooooooo sowee!!! i really really really m!!!!!!! oh ya! n thankx hannah 4 e lovely drawing!! u r e sweetest lil cousin EVER!!!! *muuackz*

2005-02-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

OMIGOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i tink 1 of my old GOOD frens n 1 of my new GOOD frens might becum a couple!! all thanks 2 e great monyee!!!! muhahahaha.. lol.. well sorta.. heehee.. sowee i m juz being thick-skinned.. haha.. but i m really happy.. hahaha..

i luv kit
i luv ash
i luv kim
i luv jess
i luv aaron
i luv terence
i luv mike
i luv jonathan
i luv calvin
i luv me

we rawk!! lol.. we came up 2 dis real real real good prank.. lol.. cant tell u all wat it is nw.. but mayb i can after we r done.. hahaha.. its gona b sooo cool! bless e poor soul who we r gona play e prank on.. heeheehee..

2005-02-05T13:39:00.000+08:00

Jesse McCartney is HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolx.. haha.. =)))

2005-02-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

aaron is nice
there u go! i said sumtin nice abt u!!! happy my dear? hahaha.. =)))

2005-02-02T18:31:00.000+08:00

*sigh* i sprain my ankle yest during training.. neway went 2 e doctor today EARLY in e morning.. so tat i could reach skool in time 2 go 2 camp.. but he asked me to go 2 e hospital 2 take x-ray n said i cant go 2 e camp.. *sigh* so i went 2 e hospital n everytin.. so nw my ankle's nicely bandaged n i nid 2 uses crutches 2 walk.. =((( no sports 4 2wks 2!!! n cant move abt much! T_T

i wana go campppppp!!!!!!!!!! i m like stuck at hm while all my frenz r having fun in camp!!! *sigh* dis sux soooooo bad!!! *boohoo*

thankx aaron, terence, mike, jonathan, ash, kim n kit 4 cuming over 2 my hus n even bringing food! u guys r soooo nice! oh n derek n sean 2!! thankx 4 toking on e fone wif me 4 such a lonnngggg time! n 4 trying 2 cheer me up by being lame.. haha.. nathan n his frenz 4 singing 4 me!!!! was so touched!! *smile* all u guys who asked me hw i wasn all tat.. u guys r sooo nice! but seriously, i m ok.. its no big deal! its nth major! =)))) i'll b fine..

2005-02-01T09:48:00.000+08:00

hmph! i hate e hobbit frog!!!!!!! hate her!!!!!! oh those who dun noe who she is, ask me, bacx or sher.. =)))) haha.. neway i hate her! she's such a b y t c h!!!! ugghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh ya! we hav 2 like write dis diary sorta tin 4 engilsh! pass up 2 her weekly or sumtin! its juz insane!! i mean like we would really write wat we really do, our tots n feeliings inside.. HA!! tats juz swt tat she tinks we would! *smirk*

*sigh* yest went 2 watch meet e fockers wif grace n mag.. my 2nd time watching.. such a waste of money.. oh well.. it was fun 2 go out wif them.. *smile*

eunice was sick yest.. poor her! hope she's beta now! takkair! =))

heehee.. neway there r rumors saying justin skie like kim!!! yupp!! MY kim!!! haha.. kim said is totally NOT true.. well.. hw would she noe rite? i haven ask justin yet.. but i'll den i'll get back 2 u guys kiez? uh-huh.. *smile* they would make such a cute couple!! =)))))

do you CHRIS???? heeheehee.. ;P

2005-01-29T19:07:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY BLOODY BROTHER!!!!!!! I HATE HIM!!! he said he wants to kill me.. like he has e guts! stupid freaking loser!! ugghhhhhh!!!!!!! i hate him!! i sooo hate living wif him man!!!

2005-01-24T19:52:00.000+08:00

nonononooooo.. nt YOU!!! i would nv like u!! nope! i wouldnt, i cant.. i mustnt!!!! i couldnt!!!

could i?

2005-01-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Soul

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

omg!!! dis song's soooo sweet.. hahaz.. *smile* i luvvvv it!!! sooooo sweeeettttt i can almost taste it! hahahaz..

2005-01-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

ok.. new lay.. hahaz.. hope its nt disturbing 4 those innocent minds *ahem*.. lolx.. hahaz.. actually its nt tat bad izzit? yup! its nt.. hahaz.. blue so its refreshing.. hahaz..

i adore ash, kit, kim and jess!!!!! =))) so proud of ourselves 4 making tat kono yaro shut up!!! it was probably e 1st time in his life! stupid kosu haro!!! :/

2005-01-20T09:49:00.000+08:00

*sigh* sheryl's nt feeling well.. hope she ll be ok..

neway went 2 the parkers' yest.. at first it was juz ash, kim n me since kit wasnt free yest.. but den zack called ash n she asked him 2 cum over so he did he oso brought his 2 frenz, marcus n jim, along coz they were at his hus.. nv meet marcus n justin b4.. they said we met at derek's party b4, i muz hav 4got.. neway justin n marcus r really v v v lame so we got along juz fine.. hahaz.. KIM THINKS JUSTIN'S CUTE!!!!!!!!!! lolx.. hahahaz.. coz she was like, "He's bringing marcus n justin? justin as in the CUTE one?".. heeheehee.. i told justin tat kim tinks he's cute n guess wat she did? she told marcus after i went home tat i m interested in him!!!! UGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! kim!!! hw could u?!! hmph! den later STUPID zack msged me n ask if i m really interested in marcus n i told him kim was OBVIOUSLY juz joking.. but zack didnt believe me at first.. but he does nw(hopefully).. =))) but i tink marcus n justin r both really fun 2 hang out wif since they r so LAME n CRAPPY!!! lolx.. hope 2 c u guys soon! *smile*

i m so excited abt sulin's luv life.. lolx.. hope it all turn out well.. =)))))

i tink sheryl tinks me n sulin r boys-crazy.. we r nt kiez? i really dun carre wat organization we do 4 PW.. i dun even mind animals.. seriously! i was juz kidding abt e boys-home.. omg sheryl!! i would nv like e guys there.. hello???!!! neway i m nt interested in guys at e moment.. i m more interested in my frens' luv lives!!!! lolx.. yeah n tat includ urs!!! lolx.. i luv sheryl!!<333

Do You DOM??
lolx.. hahahaz.. yeah.. inside joke.. =))

2005-01-18T10:02:00.000+08:00

*sigh* today's baddddd!!!! i lost my art work in e morning.. now hav 2 redo again!! its v hard kiez? T_T took me 2 days!!! i m like so depressed man.. bad tinz kip happening lately..

2005-01-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAE WEI KANG!!!! =)))))

*sigh* cheryl left 2day.. so sad man.. sent her off at e airport.. almost cry lorz.. *sob* Cheryl!!!! u beta email me kiez?? n DUN U DARE 4GET ME!!!!!!!! hmph!!!

2005-01-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

will dis last??

dis is sumtin i wanted 4 so long.. so y dun i feel happy??

2005-01-11T09:56:00.000+08:00

lolx.. cant go 2 frenster wif e coms in skool nemore.. i dun c waz their prob wif frenster! oh well.. i dun usually use e skool coms 2 go frenster neway.. *sigh* had been in a bad mood these few days.. i m actually toking less.. well.. mayb nt.. hahaz.. but at least a tiny bit less than usual! =) i actually feel gd when i m tokin coz when i m quiet, i ll b tinking of stuffz i'd rather nt tink abt.. hahaz..

SHERYL RAWKS!!!! she e nicest tin eva!! =)))) so gd 2 sit beside her.. except the fact tat it gets really hot sumtime coz she's SOOO HOTTTT!!! hahaz.. she's really sweet thou.. so nice 2 everyone!! =)))) i luvvvv moii sheryl darling!!! <3

I cant believe Cheryl's LEAVING!!!! i'm really gona miz her.. n all her crapness!! *sigh* i wish u wont leave man! miz kip in touch kiez? n dun 4get 2 miz me!! heehee.. n DUN N DARE 4GET ME!!!!! i m warning u cheryl!!! hahaz.. i luv u cheryl!! thankx 4 being such a g8 fren!! =)))))

I miz karol, carina n nancy!!! *sigh* nw its harder 4 us 2 meet since its 4 diff skools.. but we ll find a way kiez? cant lose u guys coz u guys mean 2 much 2 me.. wish all of u r in mg.. or all of us in krss? lolx. hahaz..

Ash n Aaron nid 2 get along! i noe deep inside u guys care 4 each other! hahaz.. luv both of u so much!!! =))))))

Sulin gd luck finding out abt *ahem..ahem*!! heehee.. u r sooo cute man! hahaz.. =))

2005-01-06T09:59:00.000+08:00

skool's BORING!! lolx.. i hate skool man! hmph! i wana run away frm skool.. hahaz..

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever know
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know
I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!

2005-01-04T10:00:00.000+08:00

grrr!! 2nd day of skool n i m already sooo bored.. hw will i make it throu e whole yr? *sigh* oh! e gd tin is tat i m sitting beside sheryl.. she's such a DARLING!! so cute n swt.. heehee.. our form teacher is nice thou unlike *ahem..ahem*.. lolx.. ohohoh! i got my hair cut! dun u all go 'again?!'.. its been 1 n a half month since i got my lst cut.. hahaz.. i look so stupid nw.. i m nt going out til it grow back in style alittle.. or ppl on e road will scream when they c my face since my hair is nt covering it like my old hair did.. bleah.. i shouldnt scare ppl like tat.. hahaz.. nth much happened 2day yet since skool's nt even over yet.. hahaz.. cant wait 4 it 2 b over.. i dun tink there should b much hwmk today since theres only scinece n homecon left.. n so far theres no hmwk.. heehee.. i hate hmwk.. its such a waste of time.. tats it 4 nw.. i'll cya guys soon!! take care!!

2005-01-01T18:43:00.000+08:00

lolx.. i m back.. i guess i could say i m lucky? i went 2 phuket n den there was e earthquake n all.. i actually saw dead ppl!!!! god! it was such a nightmare!! *sigh* my whole family's fine so its ok.. but i can actually feel hw sad e ppl who losttheir loved ones r.. *sigh* y did so many ppl hav 2 die? =( i m so touched by e smses i got frm e ppl who were worried 4 me.. hahaz.. thankx guys! =)))

oh ya! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! =)))) i hope u guys r happy! i m nt.. so nt.. *sigh* i tink i shall try 2 BE HAPPY.. i'll only tink of happy tinz!! =))

happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things happy things ...

lolx.. mabel kips askin me if i m 'taken', no i m nt.. n NO, I M NT LES!!! lolx.. hahaz.. mabel wans me 2 like her bro.. who is abt 6 YEARS YOUNGER than me!! lolx.. hahaz.. he's so cute thou! but.. abit 2 young ba? hahahahaz..

2004-12-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

oh! i m going overseas AGAIN tomoro.. last min tin.. bleah.. so i'll cya guys when i cum back? take care ya? n miz me kiez? lolx.. hahahaz.. luvya guys! *muuuuacccckzzzz*

i luv ash babe!!!!!!!!!! she's e sexiest babe eva man!! always there 4 mee!! i luv her lots n there's nth evil aaron can do abt it!! go away evil aaron! hw could u tell me nt 2 luv my babe??!! aaron's so evil!!! be afraid of him!! he will spread his evilness 2 u!! but even thou evil aaron's go damn evil i still luv him coz he's my sonnnn!!!! =)))) [i m so lame]

2004-12-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

i like dis eminem song, Big Weenie.. he sound so cute! especially e chorus part.. hahaz..

You are just jealous of me
Cuz you, you just can't do what I do
So instead of just admitting it
You walk around and say
All kinds of really mean things
About me cuz you're a meanie, a meanie
But it's only cuz you're
Just really jealous of me
Cuz I'm what you want to be
So you just look like an idiot
When you say these mean things
Cuz it's too easy to see
You're just a really big weenie, big weenie

2004-12-18T14:20:00.000+08:00

keke.. yest i went out wif my mum n my aunt den met aaron n terence there so asked my mum if can follow them, she allowed so we like walked around orchard.. n i bought quite alot of stuffz.. kiez.. dis is e funny part.. we met lisa.. she was wif a group of galfrenz.. den she came over 2 tok 2 us..

lisa: hey mon! aaron! erm.. hey terence!(i tink it went lidat lah)
me: lisa!
aaron: sup?!
terence: -nodded-
lisa: erm.. terence? do u wana cum over 2 my hus 2nite? my parents wont be hm.. *blush..blush*
terence: -shocked- er.. wat?? -_-"
lisa: erm.. yeah.. so will u cum? *more blushing*
terence: huh? er..
aaron: dude, go! both of u r of age.. -lol-
terence: shut up man!
me: -trying nt 2 laugh-
lisa: -rolleyes- i was jk!! it was a DARE!! my frenz dared me.. dun look at them! i m nt suppose 2 say itsa dare! (er.. sumtin lidat)
terence: oh!
aaron: bummer!
me: -finally lol-
lisa: *blush* -giggle- sowee terence! well i tink i beta get back..
me: aww.. all rite.. bye!
aaron: later! n hey, use protection 2nite!
lisa: -rolleyes-
terence: quit it man! cya lisa!
lisa: cya! -rushed back 2 her frenz-

lolx.. hahahaz.. erm.. i cant really remember EVERYTIN lah.. but should b sumtin lidat lah.. hahaz.. should hav seen terence's face! lolx.. hahahahaz..

2004-12-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

*weeee...* backk from camp!! camp was so g8!!!! lolx.. except i miz my bed!!!! lolx.. hahahaz.. n my frenz n my fone!!!! but still v fun ba.. =)))))

*sigh* cant believe u hate me coz of a guy i dun even like.. i tot u were me fren! n do u noe tat it hurts me sooooo much 2 noe u hate me? i tot our frenship would mean more 2 u than juz a guy.. but seriously.. does our frenship means TAT little 2 u??tink abt it.. i ll always remember e gd times we had thou.. i hope we can hav more of those in future..

2004-11-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

heehee.. i m at aaron's hus nw.. aaron terence mike kim ash n i r staying here 4 e nite.. so far had been really fun.. hahaz.. we had a food fight.. i felt really guilty thou coz mia n jia had 2 clean it up! sowee! oh n we were watching a horror movie.. gona stay up all nite n fool around.. hope i wont fall aslp at training tomoro! hahahaz.. pass few days i had been really depressed.. coz i really needed dis.. thankx guys(aaron terence mike kim ash).. u guys rawk!!! =) erm.. but aaron n mike v mean man! threw me in2 e pool!!! nw hav 2 wear aaron's shirt!! lolx..oh ya! i m wearing his shirt.. hahaz.. so surprised tat i, dis kinda fat pig, can fit in2 it.. hahaz.. probably coz aaron's tall n all..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SYL!!! I LUVVV YA!!!

2004-11-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

now hush little baby,
don't you cry
everything's gonna be alright
stiffen that upper lip little lady,
i told ya, i'll be here to hold ya
through the night
i know you are not happy right now
and we don't know why
we feel how we feel inside
it may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
but i promise you are gon' be alright

and if you ask me to
i'm gonna buy you a mockingbird
i'mma give you the world
i'mma buy a diamond ring for you
i'mma sing for you
i'll do anything for you to see you smile
and if that mockingbird don't sing
and that ring don't shine
i'mma break that birdies neck
i'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
and make him eat every carat
and go fuck his dad (haha)

-aaron

2004-11-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

loving someone is giving them the power to break your heart, but trusting that they won't.. but when they do, there's nothing you can do.. you just have to bear with it..

will i ever dare to love again?

2004-11-22T18:31:00.000+08:00

*weee..* me in my new room nw.. suppose 2 unpack my stuffz.. but 2 lazy.. i oso hav my clothes here wif me thou.. e rest of my tinz still at my old hus.. which means i still hav tonz of packing 2 do *sigh*.. thankx 2 all those hu offer 2 help me wif my moving!! u guys r such dearz!! but its ok.. i can handle it.. hopefully? hahaz..

haiz.. i tink he hates me.. no seriously.. mayb nt hate, but juz dun like? i duno.. i juz feel tat we used 2 be closer lorz.. n he cared more abt me last time.. but nw he like dun care much lorz.. like i m nt impt 2 him nemore.. mayb i nv was.. *sigh* .. where did i go wrong? mayb.. he nv really cared abt me.. i juz tot he did.. =(

2004-11-20T13:16:00.000+08:00

SLY IN IN E FINAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO BABY!!! LUVYA LOTS!!!!!

oh ya! got 2 tok 2 sly last thur!! so happy man! g8 2 hear his super cute voice.. he was like 'hey baby!'(omg omg omg) n i was kinda speechless 4 awhile.. hahaz.. den we tok 4 awhile more den he was like 'i luv u man!' !!!!! OHMIGOSH!!!!! SLY SAID HE LUVS ME!!!!!!! he LOVES me!!!!! kiez.. he probably meant he luvs me as a fan but still.. he LOVES me!!!! arrrhhh!!!! lolx.. hahaz.. i m NUTS!!! Sly's so cute yet so SLY!!!! hey sis(sheryl), remember e board we made 4 him? yap! hahahaz.. btw i wana thank EVERYONE who voted 4 sly!!! i luvvv u guys.. i hope u guys will kip supporting him!!! =))))

hmm.. i m like sunburnt nw coz last thur e nettiez went 2 sentosa n we spent e whole day there.. was really fun! hahahaz.. oh! e bad tin is hannah didnt do her dare! lolx.. i shall nt say wat it was! lolx.. e nettiez should noe! hahaz.. oh n yest(fri) i went orchard wif my carina, nancy n karol.. hahaz.. we watched movie.. =)).. oh! n nancy wanted 2 buy 2 shirts.. so we were like making her try of shirts after another! wahahahahaz.. i tink she wont go shopping wif us(especially me) again! hahaz.. oh!! me carina n nancy walked around in e rain.. v v v fun! wahahahaz.. luv u guys LOTS man!!

2004-11-17T11:02:00.000+08:00

15/11 - Happy Bdae nancy!!! i luvv u gal!! miz ya lotz!! i'll always be here 4 u!! =)

16/11 - Happy Bdae derek!!! thankx 4 being such a g8 'hubby'!! u r THE best fren eva!!

17/11 - Happy Bdae darrel!! =( sowee cant spend it wif u!! hav fun thou!! u seriously rawk!!

2004-11-14T11:40:00.000+08:00

haiz.. sly almost got out.. =( .. so sad.. i was like crying.. oh! thankx 2 all e ppl hu voted 4 him!!! =) my whole family all together voted 45 times.. even my bro voted 4 sly.. even thou he sorta hate sly.. coz he said i was lookin like i was gona die.. wahahahaz.. my mum oso voted n she took my dad's fone 2 vote oso.. lolx.. my dad didnt noe thou.. lolx..oh well.. my mum said she will vote 4 sly next wk if i m guai.. wahahahaz.. i hope sly wont go out.. haiz..

2004-11-10T17:02:00.000+08:00

Don't be so quick to walk away
[dance with me]
I wanna rock sly baby
Sly please stay
[dance with me]
You don't have to admit
you wanna play
[dance with me]
Just let me rock you
Till the break of day
[dance with me]

2004-11-10T15:21:00.000+08:00

i m trying 2 face reality..
e reality tat we can nv be 2gether..
its hard coz i m fallin 4 u..
u make me feel 2gether..
but tats juz a silly fantasy..
in reality, we r nt meant 2 b..
but i cant control my feelings..
but there can nv b 'us'..
juz 'u' & juz 'me'..
tats reality..
lets face it.. T_T

2004-11-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

Its a boring day, I'm bored, Mon's bored, we're both bored... thinking of how to spend our time. Hmmm...... dunno, just sit and stone. stoning is fun. Especially when you got a pretty gal to look at (Mon*)..

Many a times, friends cross your path,
Once or twice, they may be real
Never leave you till the end,
You'll always be here in my heart.
Every thing you do
Every time you need me, I'll be right beside you. =)

by :darrel:

2004-11-09T10:53:00.000+08:00

Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.

She's losing her mind.

She's fallen behind.

She can't find her place.

She's losing her faith.

She's fallen from grace.

She's all over the place.

i m going 2 2e next year.. erm.. yap! e sports class.. haiz.. i dun wan!!!! coz like all my close frenz r nt in 2e.. but i hav my sis in crime, sheryl *woohoo*!! lolx.. hahaz.. well.. they r sum ppl from 1e, like fang, joyce n all those sports ppl.. so tats quite good i guess.. oh n there's 7 nettiez in our class!! *woohoo* i m like soooo goin 2 miz every1 in 1e thou.. u guyz rawk!!! thankx 4 makin 1e sooo wonderful!! n thankx 2 bearin wif all my crapz! heehee.. -_-"

2004-11-01T10:44:00.000+08:00

Friday
sheryl n i got tickets to go watch spore idol.. i was sooo happy!! hahaz.. i was like tinking "sly! sly! sly!".. hahaz.. neway b4 e show we met at far east plaza.. walked around 4 awhile n bought sum stuffz.. nth impt! yeah.. n after tat we went to e studio.. met ashton n her sibilings there!! they are all sly's fan!! hahaz.. neway finally jean n wanpin came.. den we went in n blah blah.. 2 bad we had 2 sit wif chris's fanz.. coz jean n wanpin r like chris's diehard fanz so they got tickets from chris's parents.. haiz.. hw cum i duno sly's parents?? hahaz.. neway me n sheryl can really scream 4 sly openly, coz we r sittin wif chris's fanz, but we still did neway.. btw sheryl, we were sittin at e 2nd row.. so v v close 2 sly.. neway he waved 2 us.. yes! juz 2 me n sheryl.. n we cried!!!! ARRHHH!!! at least i noe I cried.. hahaz.. oh well.. as u all noe, chris went out rite? n wanpin started crying.. she was like weeping.. jean almost cried 2.. she looked depressed.. i felt really bad 4 them man.. i mean i'd cry 2 if its sly.. i'd do more den cry actually.. hahaz.. dun wry guys[wanpin n jean].. mayb he can bcum an actor? hahahaz.. den after tat gurmit said e idols wont go 2 e reception 2 meet us.. i was like v v v sad coz i was really hopin 2 meet sly.. den sheryl started crying.. n i was like almost crying 2.. but we still went out 2 wait neway.. juz in case they cum out.. den we met leandra sis.. she's v v v nice de.. den later got 1 reporter came n interview usabt chris.. erm.. i was on tv on sat.. eww.. -_-".. my face on tv?? scary!!! den after den we heard chris was outsideso we rushed out 2 meet him.. we hugged him n blah blah.. i was disappointed coz sly wasnt there.. den suddenly ashton's bro told us sly was at e radio gate so me n sheryl ran there!! yap! ran in our skirts.. hahaz.. netin 4 sly!! den.. there he was.. looking as hot as eva!! me n sheryl were like screaming!! den we pushed our way 2 e front n started tokin 2 him.. yap!! we toked 2 sly!!!! AARRRHHHHH!!! we hugged(!!!!!) him den i was like..
me: can i touch ur hand? coz my fren[syl] wana noe whether ur hands r smooth? n i nid 2 take a pic of it oso..
sly: my hand?? erm.. ok.. -held out both his hands-
me + sheryl : -grab n hold one of his hands each.. *melt* and we took pic of his hand-
den after tat it was back 2 takin his pic.. den suddenly..
sheryl: my fren wana kiss u!!!!! (shout)
sly: -look up- huh?
me: noo! -hide behind e crowd-
so after awhile, i pushed my way 2 e front again.. den stood rite infront of sly n took his pic..
sly: u r e 1 who wana kiss me huh?
me: erm.. yeah.. *blush*
sly: -bend down 4 me 2 kiss-
me: *muuackz* -fireworks-
sheryl: i wana kiss 2!!!! -rush 2ward sly-
so yap! after tat i kip going back 2 kiss him summore.. heehee.. btw did i mention tat sly smells REALLY GOOD??!! n his cheeks r like, soft n smooth?? neway after tat we had 2 leave.. so we did.. sadly.. haiz..
i dun tink sly remember us ba.. but me n sheryl were e only 2 who kissed him tat nite.. so mayb he will?? hahahaz.. not likely but hey, its possible!! =)

I LOVE SLY!!!!!

2004-10-31T21:03:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!!! I KISSED SLY!!! 6 TIMES!!! he's sooo freaking nice 2 kiss!!! ARRRHHHH!!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!! i lub him!!!

i ll tell u all wat happened tomoro kiez?? sowee i gtg.. so yeah.. 4 now.. go read sheryl's, my sista in crime, blog!! laterz!!

2004-10-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss sly baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing'
Cause even when I dream of yoo[sly]
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss sly baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

last nite i went 2 watch spore idol live.. thankx 2 sheryl n wanpin n jean!!! hahaz.. all of them sooo nice.. jean wrote a letter 2 me n sheryl today.. she's sooo sweet!!!!! erm.. there's alot 2 say abt e spore idol show.. so juz go read sheryl's blog.. hahaz.. =p .. sly waved at me n smile n u noe do his 'i-luv-u' sign!!!!!!!!! ARRRHHHHHHH!!!!!! i luv sly!!!! actually got 2 tickets 2 tonite show 2 (thankx ashton!!! u r sooooooo nice!!!!) but sheryl cant go.. n i dun wana go wifout my crazy sista in crime!! lolx.. hahaz.. I MIZ SLY!!!!! yes.. i miz him e way i would miz a guy i really like.. omg! i m nuts!! *kick myself* -snap out of it mon-... sly sly sly.. oh-uh.. i really really miz sly.. nida c him!!! hahaz.. yes admit I M OBSESSED WIF SLY!!!!!!!

2004-10-20T17:43:00.000+08:00

omg! omg! omg! tell me dis is nt true??!! sum1 saw sly and maia at paragon yesterday, HOLDING HANDS(wat e hell?????!!!!) n SHARING their mash potato or sumtin(eww...)!!!! tats juz soooooooo w r o n g!!! sly can do muccchhhhh beta than maia!! maia is a woman WIF A CHILD!!! wat? he wana bcum a step-dad??!!! ugh!!! trust me, its nt tat i dun like maia.. i do actually.. or.. mayb i DID.. UGH!!! dis is toooo much 4 me 2 take.. i seriously hope its nt true.. e two of them r juz so wrong!!! like red n green?? yeah.. haiz.. duno wat 2 say man.. lost 4 words.. T_T

oh yeah!! i might b going 2 watch spore idol tomoro wif sheryl.. she got 2 tickets!!! *woohoo!!!* hahaz.. so happy!!!! hope no last min change in plans or sumtin.. v scared.. i really really really really wana go!!!!!!! sheryl i luvvvvv u.. n i oso luv e person hu u got e tickets from!! lolx.. hahaz.. cant wait!!! oh its front row seats.. cool rite??????? hahaz.. but dun wan my face 2 appear on tv! eww.. later every1 watching puke 2 death!!! lolx.. den i'll feel guilty 4 e rest of my life.. hahaz.. me n sheryl r gona make a poster 4 SLY!!!! n we r gona scream our hearts out 4 dear dear sly.. noe wat? tinkin abt sly bring a smile 2 my face.. i really do luv him!! hahaz.. luv him!! luv him!! luv him!! luv him!! luv him!! luv him!! luv him!! I LUVVVV SYLVESTER SIM!!!! hahahaz.. i really seriously truely do!!!!! *muuackz*

P.S. cant wait til tomoro!!!

2004-10-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

*YAY* aaron 4gave me!!! n guess wat? i went 2 aaron's house.. coz i wana say sowee personally.. n he actually said he didnt mean 2 ignore me, but coz yesterday he had a camp so couldnt call me n stuff.. den on sunday he lost his hp n oso he was busy preparing 4 camp n everytin.. so i told him i was sooo worry tat i cried n stuffz.. n he was like "terance didnt u? i m gona f**king kill him!" lolx.. n he said sowee 2 me.. aww.. i m so happy.. n sumtin really GREAT happened 2.. buuutttt i m nt telling! =p

*sob..sob* i got back my english mark today.. IT SUX SOO BADD!!! haiz.. i tink i got 1 of e lowest in class? coz i didnt read e instructions 4 e summery.. n i totally wrote e wrong tin!!!!!! even Flim was like "next time read e instructions!".. she seem happy thou.. i guess she was probably tinkin tat "ha! c lah! dis gal, duno hw 2 follow instructions!".. UGH!!! dis f**king sux man!! T_T *kick myself*

AHHH!!! i luv sly!!!! he's e cutest tin tat hav ever lived in spore.. hahaz.. i didnt say e world coz hey there's still tom n all.. hahaz.. i wana meet sly soooo badly.. *sigh*

2004-10-17T16:15:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i wonder waz my prob is? i kip teasing aaron til he's mad at me.. dis time, i really went abit 2 far.. i guess.. i was sorta pms-ing.. so yeah.. btw thankx 2 terance, jonathan, mike, ash, kim and kit 4 cheering me up n helping me.. u guys r DA best! hahaz..n ARRHHH!!! i cant take aaron being mad at me.. i juz cant.. dis is e 1st time u noe? i so freaking screwed up badly!! i hate me!! wat if he nv tok 2 me again?? i m so full so guilt.. i really m sowee.. haiz.. HELP ME!! i m going nuts!!! i actually cried kiez?? i cried 4 sooo long.. but its my own fault.. i deserve it.. haiz.. btw unless u r aaron.. dun continue reading.. hahaz.. thankx! btw dun 4get 2 vote 4 sly!!!!! luv ya all!! *muuackz*

[4 aaron's eyes only: sowee dear.. plz dun b angry??!! i swear i'll make it up 2 u!! i cant lose u.. u r my best fren.. u r e hu listen when i m angry.. like to make me happy is ur mission.. i will nv take u 4 granted again.. dis, i promise u.. i m really truely deeply very sowee!! frenz?]

2004-10-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

guyz!! plz plz plz vote 4 sly!!!! he didnt do TAT well dis time.. but still.. totally nt his fault kiez?? he's still cute lah.. heehee.. plz PLZ vote 4 him!!! i beg u.. thankx!! =)

2004-10-14T09:58:00.000+08:00

Latest!!!

by ash~

kim saw damien in his boxers!!!!!
aaron kissed terance on a dare!!!!!
a playboy magazine was found in josh room!!!
a 20years old babe asked derek out on a date!! no, he didn't go!!
derek kissed mon*!! lucky her!!
jimmy's gay!!! or so he acts like one..
its so duh dat aaron likes mon*!! its ok derek, don't beat him up!

that's all for now. mon* u better don't delete or edit dis!!! ;p

ash~

2004-10-13T10:16:00.000+08:00

whenever i step outside, somebody claims to see the light it seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.'cause everyone thinks they're right, and nobody thinks that there just might be more than one road to our final destination

but i'm not ever going to know if i'm right or wrong'cause we're all going in the same direction and i'm not sure which way to go because all along we've been going in the same direction

i'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame for all the holes in answers that are clearly showing for something to fill the space, was all of the time i spent a waste 'cause so many choices point the same way i was going.....

so why does there only have to be one correct philosophy? i don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them and why are you always telling me what you want me to believe? i'd like to think that i can go my own way and meet you in the end.

but i'm not ever going to know..........

2004-10-08T16:10:00.000+08:00

haiz.. did sooo badly 4 geog n hist.. toking wif my 'sons' nw.. they r at mike's house.. damn! they r so noisy man.. hahaz.. *yay* they rawk! they r voting 4 sly!! =) even thou i forced them 2 vote, e fact is, they r still voting! lolx.. aaron's mad.. he wana change his family name.. yeah.. u can take ur wife's family name when u get marry.. oh! u can stay at home n look after e babies 2.. or u can juz marry a guy! terance mayb?? he has a nice family name! wahahahaz.. sowee.. its juz 2 cute 2 tease u.. heehee.. actually i m suppose 2 go catch a movie wif them.. but jonathan hurt his leg while playin football.. yeah e rugby kind.. n i hav no mood 2 study science.. so yap! i m stitting here.. wasting away my time.. cant wait til 8.30.. hope sly get in!! he sang sooo well.. n ken said he could win spore idol!!!!! sly's so damn cute man.. heehee.. i luvvvvvv him!!!! those hu voted 4 sly, or r gona vote 4 him, u guys rawk!! =)

cheryl & syl: i m glad 2 say i've REALLY gotten over tat person.. =) *go me!*

2004-10-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

omfg!!! i m so so so freaking out!! in a good way!! jess is cummin back!!!! *yay* =)) miz her sooo much!! hahahaz.. EVEN derek oso miz her.. yes he does hav feelingz.. lolx.. hahahaz.. oh ya! derek so cant cook!! honestly! he tried 2 cook 4 me yesterday.. it was really swt of him thou.. i was soo touched man.. derek i luvvv u!!! in a fren/ sis-bro way of cos! lolx.. hahaz.. but he's so cute when he is confuse! lolx.. hahaz.. n no i dun like him in tat kinda way.. so dun ask!! but i do tink he's hot.. hu dun rite? yap! heehee..

i luv sly!!! plz plz plz vote 4 him!!! if he dun get in, i might die!!! i cant believe syl cried 4 jessea!! grrr!! but tat goes 2 show tat he's a nice caring guy wif feelingz.. hahaz.. gtg aaron's on e line!! ttfn!! *muuackz*

2004-10-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

nth much happenin in my life nw adays lah.. i m try 2 summerize everytin lah.. kiez?

my 'sons' rox!! they are always there 2 cheer me up!! (especially aaron) ^_^
my 'husband' v busy now adays.. wonder waz up? but he still calls everyday! =)
benjamin chew is so... nvm... O_o
haven finish studying.. haven even really started.. X(
been tokin wif jim alot.. he n chloe REALLY suit each other!! <3
who's shang rong?? -_-"
examz r cuming!! n i m NOT ready!!! =(
mayb can get new fone.. hopefully!! =p
my life SUX!!! T_T

2004-09-29T08:14:00.000+08:00

ahh.. sowee haven update in quite a while.. haiz.. now adays like nt in e mood 4 netin.. n noe wat? i dun even care if i fail or pass my finalz nemore.. its nt important 2 me.. -_-"

oh yeah! 4-way-call is fun! at least it is when ppl r actually tok n nt fighting.. lolx.. hahaz.. yes.. i m tokin abt ash n aaron.. lolx.. hahahaz.. 2 of them so cute leh.. they suit each other alot noe? shit! zack's gona kill me 4 saying tat -hide behind ash-.. lolx.. hahaz.. i m in a crappy mood now.. i tink i should stop blogging.. like nw? lolx.. hahaz..

2004-09-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

i lived a life

n dreamed a dream

n loved e life

u lived wif me

den in e whisper

of a breath u left

n den I almost die a death

2004-09-22T14:01:00.000+08:00

syl rawk!!! honestly! =) she's damn nice de.. hahaz.. now in com lab.. waiting 4 darling cheryl.. hahaz.. charlene juz wrote me a testi.. ppl gona tink i m les man! wahahahaz.. oh yeah! my frenster acc is still using e legally__me.. so yeah.. =) .. i miz my acc.. n its sorta makin me nt wantin 2 go online.. or should i say nt wantin go on msn.. coz like i'll b damn sad when i c hw many contactz i hav inside.. like compare 2 last time, its like more than 100 times less!! haiz.. sad rite?? i noe.. duno y i m tokin crap man.. bleah.. neway i'm goin out later so *yay*.. hate being stuck at hm.. erm.. nw syl left me 2 go look 2 cheryl.. *sob*.. i m soo lonely.. aww.. i tink i m seriously crazy!! metal break down?? lolx.. yesterday got emotional break down.. lolx.. muz thank jethro 4 TRYING 2 cheer me up! thankx jet! =) hahaz.. tat STUPID person promised he'll b there 4 me, but he's nt kiez?? wat kinda fren is he man! he was 2 busy 'breaking' other ppls' relationship up! hmph! even jet's a beta fren than him lorz.. -rolleyes- er.. i m really tokin crap.. so i tink i should stop like now? yeah.. til next time den! luv ya all!!! =D

2004-09-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

important...

omfg!! (Me:sowee.. dun mind my language.. You: its ok.. go on.. Me: *smile* thankew!).. i cant get in2 my e-mail.. e legally__me!!! how??? its like hw m i suppose 2 add every1 back? impossible! n hw m i suppose 2 tell every1?? ugh!!! dis sux man!! neway i juz made a new acc.. even thou i WILL try my best 2 get back my old 1.. e new 1 is shimmering_luv@hotmail.com so plz plz plz add me!!! i m like feeling like shit nw.. i really really nid my tat acc back!!! T_T i m already depressed enough.. n nw dis! ugh!! i hate myself!!! y m i soo stupid??? i really dun get it.. =(

____until the day they burn my body x i will love you++ *star crossed love*

____until the day they burn my body x i will love you++ star crossed love